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Practicing with Shutting Down

If you have struggled with the tragic strategy of shutting down, to meet needs for peace and safety, then you know how quickly it can show up in times of stress.  When you hit a big stressor, your system miscues and imagines you are back in that old context in which shutting down was the only option you had.  Some part of you still holds the belief that you can't be present for the stressor and survive, some part of you has to go away.


If you are reading this, then you have likely been working to cultivate skill in mindfulness and self-empathy.  You probably have many more resources and skills then when the tragic strategy of shutting down first appeared in your life.  Yet, you find yourself shutting down.  It seems to run on automatic and you wonder how to intervene.


There are, at least, three things to consider;

  1. How you relate to the shutting down

  2. Access to self-confidence

  3. Engagement


How you relate to shutting down


As with any form of reactivity, pushing it away or distracting yourself from it, isn't helpful.  Put mindful attention on the reaction.  Notice exactly what's happening in your experience that is a part of the shutting down reaction.  For example, you might notice your mind is foggy, your body is lethargic, you have the impulse to go back to bed, and there is a numbness around your heart.  Each time you name some aspect of shutting down with gentleness and acceptance you engage a new way of being.  With practice, this grounded "pattern" of relating to your experience will become more prominent than the reactive pattern.


Access Self-confidence


To stay engaged in times of stress rather than shut down, you also need a sense of self-confidence in your ability to stay with it and be okay.  Cheerleading yourself by repeating "I can do this.  I can be present to my feelings and be okay," is likely helpful and yet not quite enough.  It's important to mindfully replay all the times you were present to feelings or other intense experience and ended up safe and okay.  As you replay these moments, really experience those previous times in your whole body, heart, and mind.  Each time you do, you are integrating a sense of confidence.


Engagement


Shutting down is a process of disengagement.  You can interrupt that process by engaging life in some tangible way, before shutting down can take over.  Engagement can take many forms.  You might go for a walk, start a woodworking project, schedule a tea date with a friend; anything that helps you engage mindfulness.  The key here is to not follow the impulse to stay disengaged or become disengaged.  The more shut down has taken over, the more that something like staying home alone all day working on the computer will seem attractive.  Don't be fooled, this is not going to meet your needs.  The moment you feel the impulse to disengage, do something, no matter how small, to engage with life.


Practice

Choose one of the three practices above to try out at least once today.

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2 Responses

  1. Jan 12, 2017

    LaShelle, I love your blog. This one spoke to me so clearly. I so agree that our defense system reacts even when we no longer need it to. It is a constant practice to give self compassion, reassurance, notice my body's direct experience. Thanks for your work!

  2. Jan 13, 2017

    Very glad to hear it!

    Your welcome :)

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